COLUMBIA, S.C. — A South Carolina mother sentenced to life in prison for killing her two young sons never planned to kill them and instead intended to end her own life, according to a letter she wrote to a Columbia newspaper.
“I had planned to kill myself first and leave a note behind telling what had happened,” Susan Smith said in a letter to The State newspaper. “I didn’t believe I could face my family when the truth was revealed.”
Smith, now 43, was convicted in 1995 of leaving her sons strapped in their car seats as she rolled her car into a Union County lake in the northwestern part of the state. The case incensed the black community because Smith claimed a black man carjacked her and drove off with the children.
Prosecutors said Smith killed her sons because a wealthy, well-connected man she was having an affair with cut off the relationship. A prosecutor sought the death penalty, but Smith was sentenced to life in prison.
In the letter, reported in Wednesday’s newspaper editions, Smith wrote that she loved 3-year-old Michael and 14-month-old Alex and had not planned to kill them.
“Something went very wrong that night. I was not myself,” she wrote. “I was a good mother and I loved my boys. ... There was no motive as it was not even a planned event. I was not in my right mind.”
Smith said she only lied about the kidnapping because she didn’t know what to tell people about their deaths.
“I am not the monster society thinks I am,” she wrote. “I am far from it.”
Wednesday marks the 20th anniversary of Smith’s conviction.
Information from: The State, http://www.thestate.com